Holy Cow it’s May! I guess you could sum up the last two & a half months (since I clearly didn’t post anything) in a word: rough! For whatever reason I’ve been in a funk. I’ve felt like a shell of myself watching life play out and doing my best to participate. Phil and I had ski weekends, wine country trips, a Palm Springs getaway, and fun times with friends but still…this funk. I hated my body, I was under motivated to do much of anything I wasn’t obligated or scheduled to do, & I even began to resent my job (and I’ve got the greatest job in the world – just look at my awesome students at the last UNRAVEL workshop *click here for link to sign up for round 2 this Sunday*)!I am quite skilled at forgetting to practice what I preach & it was time for me to take a deep dive into the root of the problem. I realized certain shifts had to be made, and while change may scare the shit out of me, it is inevitable. As my father always says, “The only constant is change.” If we want to keep succeeding and taking steps towards future goals, things have to change. So what did I change? I adjusted my studio offerings to give myself self care time in the mornings. I’ve started doing more meditation and activities I like, rather than exercise to look a certain way. I also stopped lying to myself. I didn’t want to admit it but I was living for others – trying to be perfect for everyone instead of just being happy with myself. I know that I need to be my most authentic self, & I can’t please everyone. I can only take responsibility for my own happiness & hope it rubs off on those around me. Oh, also Phil and I are moving to Walnut Creek. Yep, in a few short months we will be moving over the bridge & establishing a new routine in the East Bay. For the record, we are NOT moving because we are pregnant, haha (my family ALREADY asked), but we do think this is better for our family. The thought of leaving the city is bittersweet but I’m sure they’ll be more to come on that later.
’til next time, keep smiling! 🙂