Spirals

Happy Sunday Friends!

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As always, life is getting in the way of finding space to write – it’s hard to get into a routine with all the changes. I try to be the most positive version of myself at all times but it has been really hard as of late. Before the move, before the new job, & before my recent diagnosis (which I will get into), I was in a healthy & comfortable routine which now is slipping through my fingers. I’m reminded of how stressful it felt to commute over an hour each way and how resentful it feels to loose that time. More than that, I’m feeling like there is no time for me & the things I love: cooking, writing, running, meditating, personal practice, & being with my fur baby. I thought I could handle everything and just take it in stride, but sometimes, it feels like I’m spiraling.

To backtrack a bit, I was diagnosed with Neurofibromatosis at the end of June. I have long suspected I had the genetic disorder – when I was about eleven my parents were told I likely I had the disease but the diagnosis didn’t come until two decades later. So now, I have to figure out what’s going on with my body and what it means for my future offspring. I apparently can’t have children naturally & can only go the IVF route if I want to carry my own. Not to sound insensitive to mothers everywhere who’ve gone that route but I never thought it would be me – to be more specific, I’d rather adopt than put myself through the emotional and financial hardship. I’m trying my best not to worry before there is something to worry about but the brain is spiraling.IMG_1592I’m not sharing any of this to garner sympathy, in fact, that is exactly what I don’t want. I am sharing because I feel like we all keep too much shit to ourselves in an effort avoid shame and judgement. I spend a lot of my time trying to put on the face that everyone else wants to see. It is so much easier to disappoint myself than to let others down or make them feel uncomfortable.

What if we all were just a little more honest about everything we’re going through and have had to handle? What if we took down the veil and were vulnerable? It may scare the shit out of me but the more honest I am, the more I can connect with others and feel like I’m not alone.

IMG_1612.jpgBefore the pity party pours in, I had a wonderful time cooking & spending time with friends yesterday (Paella curtesy of my amazing friend Alvaro). I’m reading a bit on the train when I was able to get a seat, & I keep a gratitude journal in an effort to stay grounded and be reminded of the positives. Life can sometimes be a struggle but I am confident the moments of pain, fear, and hardship make the shining moments that much brighter. I don’t want to sugar coat my life, not anymore: I haven’t been lying or sharing ‘alternative facts’ but I don’t share the not so sunny stuff – I won’t do that anymore. Life is messy and I hope y’all are ready for it!

’til next time, keep smiling! 🙂

 

 

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Foodie Friday & The Move

So what has it been, two weeks? Maybe 3…I’m not sure, but it certainly has been a minute. With the craziness of the move, and a lot of other things going on, I couldn’t find the time to write. Well, I have been writing – journaling, and snippets of inspiration for a book in chewing on – but not here.

ANYWAY, we survived the move! It’s officially been a week and we’re nearly unpacked. When I say nearly, I mean we still have about 10 boxes sitting in the corner and a bunch of stuff strewn all over the place, but we’re settling in. I have been enjoying all the trails right outside my door, our beautiful pool, and A LOT more space.

Since I haven’t really had time to organize the kitchen and cook many proper meals, this week Foodie Friday is a salad – but a really AWESOME one! I made falafel the other night and put together this salad to go with it. If you’re saying to yourself ‘share your falafel recipe‘ Here it is, haha, you just add water.IMG_1357So back to the salad…I am mildly obsessed with feta cheese – it goes on nearly every salad I make, & this one is no exception.

Weeknight Salad

  • Mixed Greens
  • Pine Nuts
  • Tomatoes
  • Cucumber
  • Herbs (cilantro, parsley, & dill)
  • Feta Cheese
  • Shallot
  • Balsamic Vinegar
  • EVOO
  • Salt & Pepper

IMG_1336I am pretty confident most of you know how to put together a salad but it’s all about the little things. For example, I buy raw nuts & toast them myself – TRUST, it makes a difference. Also, I don’t buy bottled dressing – get yourself some good EVOO and balsamic and just mixed them half & half. Last, add herbs to your salads to bump up the flavor profile – I always keep cilantro, parsley, and dill in my fridge but you can do whatever you want. Last, last, thing…just because its a salad doesn’t mean you shouldn’t add salt (salt literally brings out flavor in food). Generously salt and pepper your greens before you dress them. Now that you’re in the know, you’re ready to go!

’til next time, keep smiling! 🙂

Alaska, Memorial Day, & Our New Ride

We made it home from Alaska without being eaten by any bears or throwing each other overboard! The trip almost didn’t happen since our plane was delayed and my brilliant husband insisted on booking the latest possible flight BUT God was on our side and the Port Authority was feeling generous so we made it onto the ship! IMG_0527-2With sunrise around 4:30am and sunset around 9:45pm there was so much time to get out and explore! I think my favorite day was when we went riding through Dyea – I absolutely love being on a horse! There is something about having a strong animal trusting you to guide them, and you in turn trusting them to carry you through the wilderness – it’s so great! Secretly I want to buy a horse now but seeing as we just bought a car, I think I need to halt on the horse. IMG_0837Yep, that’s right, we bought a car! Phil and I pulled the trigger on a 2015 Certified Preowned BMW X1 Sport & I can’t tell who likes it more, Phil or Theo! I’m just thrilled to finally have a set of wheels in this city & the ability to get around. Of course the car came as a result of our pending move but I will take it any way I get it.IMG_0870 The car will come in handy for transporting yoga props to Halcyon for my Hennessy sponsored, Jigger & Dash hosted, myofascial release workshop. I currently hold a bi-monthly myofascial release workshop at Moxie Nob Hill, and on the 18th I will be adopting it for industry friends…I am so excited to work with such a deserving group of hard working professionals!

 

’til next time, keep smiling! 🙂

The BEST Weekend

IMG_0177Every couple years my Birthday falls on Mother’s Day! Talk about an incredible gift – I got to celebrate my birth on the day we all celebrate the women who gave us life. I was so thrilled when my mother told me she and Dad would be coming out here for the long weekend,  I totally over-planned and obsessed over their visit! IMG_0147It was such a great trip – we tried new vineyards and regions that we typically don’t venture & shared some of our favorite spots too. It was nice to spend time, just the four of us, and be in such a beautiful region! I can’t even believe the weather stayed as nice as it did and everything turned out perfectly.IMG_0141Now, as if I were some sort of jet setter, I’m heading to Alaska! This means I have traveled to Tahoe, Sonoma, Napa, Palm Springs, Nashville, New York, Philadelphia, Seattle, Victoria, Juneau, Skagway, & Ketchikan all before the 6 month mark. I am so lucky to have a partner who likes to travel & explore as much as I do! IMG_6343In other news, I am going to start announcing my departure from the city to the students at the studio & my clients this week. I feel foolish leaving a place I am finally establishing a following, but it’s for the best. We’re embarking on a brand new chapter & it’s going to be amazing!!

 

’til next time, keep smiling! 🙂

Visits & Visitors

Look at me posting two weeks in a row….WOOOOOH, I’m on fire, haha! Phil and I ditched the derby and cinco de mayo craziness in SF for some spring skiing in Tahoe…it was glorious! The snow may have been mashed potatoes but we still had a ball & came away in one piece. IMG_0538Phil gets on a plane tomorrow to travel for business so I’m single in the city for a little while. I hate it when he leaves but it will give me some time to prepare for our special guests, my mom & dad! My parents let me know about a month ago they planned to come out here so mom and I could celebrate Mother’s Day/My Birthday together. Every so many years my birthday falls on Mothers Day. Selfishly, I wished I would be a mother this year myself but it is all in God’s time, not mine, and I am grateful to  be celebrating the best mom this coming Sunday! We’ll be celebrating in style with a three day, two night stay in Sonoma. I have scheduled the works: private tastings & pairings, to massages & tasty dinners, we’ll have a wonderful weekend getaway!IMG_0871 Apparently our dreamy wine country weekend wasn’t enough of a vacation because Phil and I head to Alaska a few days after my parents leave! If you follow my blog (God bless you) you know I went to Alaska in 2014 with my family but Phil wasn’t able to make the trip. It was so incredible I promised Phil we would visit Alaska together & the time has come. We’ll be spending about 10 days hiking, kayaking, horse back riding, and taking full advantage of everything Alaska has to offer. IMG_0886The whole month of May, moving forward, is vacation and loving life; which means June is going to be a slap in the face in terms of moving, haha, but we’ll worry about that later!

 

’til next time, keep smiling! 🙂

Big Changes

Holy Cow it’s May! I guess you could sum up the last two & a half months (since I clearly didn’t post anything) in a word: rough! For whatever reason I’ve been in a funk. I’ve felt like a shell of myself watching life play out and doing my best to participate. Phil and I had ski weekends, wine country trips, a Palm Springs getaway, and fun times with friends but still…this funk. I hated my body, I was under motivated to do much of anything I wasn’t obligated or scheduled to do, & I even began to resent my job (and I’ve got the greatest job in the world – just look at my awesome students at the last UNRAVEL workshop *click here for link to sign up for round 2 this Sunday*)!IMG_0506I am quite skilled at forgetting to practice what I preach & it was time for me to take a deep dive into the root of the problem. I realized certain shifts had to be made, and while change may scare the shit out of me, it is inevitable. As my father always says, “The only constant is change.” If we want to keep succeeding and taking steps towards future goals, things have to change. So what did I change? I adjusted my studio offerings to give myself self care time in the mornings. I’ve started doing more meditation and activities I like, rather than exercise to look a certain way. I also stopped lying to myself. I didn’t want to admit it but I was living for others – trying to be perfect for everyone instead of just being happy with myself. I know that I need to be my most authentic self, & I can’t please everyone. I can only take responsibility for my own happiness & hope it rubs off on those around me. IMG_0445Oh, also Phil and I are moving to Walnut Creek. Yep, in a few short months we will be moving over the bridge & establishing a new routine in the East Bay. For the record, we are NOT moving because we are pregnant, haha (my family ALREADY asked), but we do think this is better for our family. The thought of leaving the city is bittersweet but I’m sure they’ll be more to come on that later.

 

’til next time, keep smiling! 🙂

 

Here we go!

So we had an awesome time in Nashville even though the weather was rainy! We hit the Honky Tonks on Broadway, toured RCA Studio B & Ryman Auditorium, ate our weight in delicious southern food, and enjoyed some time away together. Oh, and did I mention I snagged myself some of these…IMG_0618I have always wanted them and am so thrilled to have gotten two pair of beautiful boots in the Music City!

We missed the warm weather here in San Francisco. Of course it was gorgeous while we were away & now it feels like 35 outside. That’s okay, we soaked up the sun in Sonoma this weekend. We had such a great time with our friends and picked up from 3 of our 5 wine club memberships.IMG_0616With all the excitement we have been indulging a bit. Over the next few weeks we’re making a solid effort to stick with a healthier dietary routine starting today. Here’s what was on the grocery list:

  • Broccoli, Asparagus, Green Beans, Cucumber, Spinach, Kale, Bell Pepper, Cherry Tomatoes, Mixed Greens, Avocados, Iceberg Lettuce, Butternut Squash, Carrot, Celery, Dill, Parsley, Cilantro, Chives, Apples, Mandarins, Lemons, Limes, White Beans, Black Beans, Garbanzo Beans, Quinoa, Whole Wheat Penne, Whole Wheat Bread, Chicken (Phil), Shrimp (Me), & Tuna.

I will be making my first quinoa bowls EVER, so look for some recipes coming your way, & am looking forward to getting back into the swing of things.

 

’til next time, keep smiling! 🙂